Edit: Fantastic work, btw. Thanks for sharing

I thought it was a phone they were holding at first, but pondering a brush is just as sad to me.

I do the same thing with my instruments, the only thing I seem to work anymore is my voice.

I never find myself engaged in my music like I used to be. I do, however, find myself having moments through the day where I'm inspired and I feel that fire. I feel the flow sometimes when I'm singing and that feeling reminds me of how much I love what I used to do so much.

But once I'm home, I have nothing to give. It's been eating at me for a long time. I wish I knew how to get that feeling back that I had all the time