Meetings aren’t a monolith; they’re all constructed of the people that make them up. While they all share the common goal of helping people quit you’ll find some groups you will or won’t mesh well with. If you find you love that’s great, but keep exploring and find other perspectives too. If you find one you hate, don’t give up and try a different meeting. Best of luck to you and consider asking your doctor about disulfiram, acamprosate, or naltrexone. Medication for alcohol use disorder can and does work when used correctly.