don't beat yourself too much, as we get older, our social interactions outside of work tend to dumpen, your friend circle tend to get smaller, it's normal ... If you cherish social interaction go out more, go to bar, speak with strangers... there's nothing better than to deep dive into each other psychés with a stranger ... especially for us, socially hungry ... take on a hobby - I suggest hours of classical dancing in pairs, it's better when you dont have a partner, you dance for a bit with lots of women and you tend to feel stuff without even talking, the connection is sometimes beautiful and spontaneous, othertimes a bit cringy but it's all part of the "Dance"