Thank you for your comment. Believe it or not, I make this comment not just for the one I'm replying to, but also myself and everyone who happens to see it. After all, this is a public board. What you told me is exactly how I see it too. And as to why it's for myself too, it's because I need to constantly remind myself of my past, my convictions, and apply them to my actions. I already understand everything that's positive about life for me, but I'm still fighting myself. I am a slave to my anger, to say the least. One's greatest enemy is themself.

Something similar is "fake it 'till you make it", and although that one doesn't really try to understand the positives, it gets one to take the first step and next steps without thinking about it. Maybe afterwards, they have a better idea.

Edit: PS you're a wonderful person