[Story] I feel like all hope is lost for me

Submitted by Drblackcobra t3_126b61z in GetMotivated

Everything in my life isn’t improving at all. I haven’t accomplished anything in my life and I’m only a high school senior. All of my peers have done great things, like scoring in the 30+ range on the ACT or doing sports. I haven’t done those things at all. I just see success around me and failure within myself. I noticed that there’s a ton of talented people in prestigious universities, like Harvard and Columbia, yet I’m not talented or amazing at all. I genuinely feel like there’s no point in searching for a degree or job since I won’t be happy. People want to help us become successful, but I feel that success itself isn’t just in your job. True success to me is being recognized and appreciated all over the world and being an example for generations to follow. All of my peers will succeed and I won’t. They are so much better than me and smarter than me. They can score well on any practice tests for AP U.S. Government and Politics and AP English Literature and Composition and can even understand the material. This week, we did a practice test for AP English Literature and Composition and they scored higher than me. I got a 11/22, while they scored a 17/24 or even higher but I didn’t see all of their papers. I couldn’t read, speak, or write well and this is what contributed to how stupid I am. I’m a dumb kid since I got a 24 on the ACT, yet by some pure stroke of luck I got accepted into all 5 of the universities that I had applied for. I see success on social media, where they have all of this money, expensive items like cars, clothes, and jewelry, girls, and mansions, yet I’m here with nothing to my name. No achievements that would make me distinguished to the top universities around the world, my peers, and my family. I wanted to do game development, programming, and drawing, but I can’t do those things because I’m not good enough to learn and I’m too slow. I wanted to exercise, but I gave up because I wasn’t improving at all and I’m still skinny at the moment. I now know that nobody doesn’t want to be friends with me since I’m weird and annoying. I don’t even know how to find my SO or feel true love. I’m never going to survive college and I’m never going to survive life. It’s over for me. I’m just tired of being worthless to everyone around me. I’m a failure and I always will be.

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Mysterious-Gas1537 t1_je8gs5w wrote

You compare yourself to other people too much. Also, every morning give yourself a goal that you want to achieve that day. Try to end your day knowing that you did something which will benefit you in the future. You can score without a target. Good luck!

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Modern_Devil t1_je8i2ud wrote

This sounds mildly like depression

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theonlyone38 t1_je8gubd wrote

You know what's great about failure? If you have the right mindset you can take each failure and turn it into small successes. You can't be so hard on yourself, but you can also take each failure as a lesson on how to improve.

None of your peers built the dreams they had in a day either. They have their own stories behind them with a series of failures and challenges you never got to see. So don't count yourself out yet. Just focus on the step in front of you, and don't obssess over the people running beside you.

If you're always looking at the people behind you (the past) or the people beside you (the present) who is driving you forward? (Your future.)

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gomidgo t1_je91410 wrote

Do not overcomplicate life! Live it and enjoy it, don't think about others Do You. And finally find a hobby that you passionate about.

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Mnstrdg t1_je9lwxb wrote

You are so young. Go to college, find yourself.

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Money-Shine3446 t1_je9x8cm wrote

you know you can do nothing right and then get a sales job and make like 200,000 a year with no degree it’s all relative man just stay positive. Don’t think too much about grades in sports if you love sports, go play with your friends recreationally if you teach one kid or tutor, one kid, you’ll feel fulfilled in life that you’re passing things onto the next generation and that’s it just don’t overthink it.

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Money-Shine3446 t1_je9x8vw wrote

you know you can do nothing right and then get a sales job and make like 200,000 a year with no degree it’s all relative man just stay positive. Don’t think too much about grades and sports. if you love sports, go play with your friends recreationally if you teach one kid or tutor, one kid, you’ll feel fulfilled in life that you’re passing things onto the next generation and that’s it just don’t overthink it.

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rkhbusa t1_jeakj3i wrote

I recommend you do a break through amount of magic mushrooms

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