Thanks to everyone who left a comment on this post, it feels so good to know I’m not alone in this feeling.

I might take you up on the advice that i should seek therapy, i just hope that I don’t get prescribed any sorts of medication because I can’t see myself living like that, depending on a drug.

One comment that resonated with me the most was the one suggesting i should focus more on the next step rather than the big picture, i agree. I focus too much on the end, i should take a step back.

It’s so inspiring to see people here that are still going on so strongly despite having life threatening diseases, it makes me feel so ungrateful for my health and a little bit of brat. You guys are awesome, i hope i can be as strong as yall one day.