Your response clearly indicates you are worried about your past and the future.

But if you take moment to analyze Can you amend the past? No Can you amend the future? Possibly all you can do is take the lessons from the past and keeping future in mind, consiously create this very moment, all you have to do is "Open the freaking gift pack" and change what exactly you worried about for a better future, can you do it? If yes, DO IT NOW 🙃