Remember that we all do. We are human at the end of the day. Understand that we don't know everyone's story until they tell us. We don't what people go through behind closed doors. We can see someone with good looks or a nice car or they can have a whole bunch of friends but secretly they can hate themselves or really just despise their lives as it. Learn to love people as human beings first. Forgive yourself and understand that you made through the tough times for a reason. I would recommend Yoga and music with positive messages. Be more in nature and perhaps do some volunteering. More importantly learn to love yourself a bit more. The world is blessed to have you in it. I'm happy that you are so self aware. Blessings.