I used to always say I did better under the pressure of a deadline, and I did, because I required that looming deadline to give me the adrenal to finish something. From what I've been reading about trauma it comes from being in a chronic fight or flight state, it leaves you frozen. in order to overcome this freeze state you need the stress of a deadline.

I've had to start using pomodoro timers and blocking time in my day. Now that I've got an infant and a toddler it's nearly impossible and I find myself having to channel that type of energy whenever I get a free minute.

I also deleted social media apps from my phone to help me eliminate doom scrolling because I always feel like I have no time and after seeing how much time I was spending online I did in fact have the time.

Adulting is hard fellow human