I used to be a working musician, have a degree in jazz performance, toured the country and played countless shows.

Due to some terrible events I sort of lost my mind for a bit. Mental collapse. I sold all my stuff and lived in the woods for awhile. Came back when I was so alone I started hallucinating people in the woods looking back at me.

Got a natural sciences diploma. Jumped around a bunch of jobs. I was totally burnt out of music, didn't even play anymore. I rarely played for over a decade.

Just recently I've been getting back into it. I decided to film a musical project idea I had. It was fun, I recorded more.

Now I'm posting them to YouTube and tiktok and I'm getting very positive responses! Someone said it was true art which touched me. Maybe I've wasted a decade not following my dreams or maybe that was the path I was always meant to take but yes, be you, express it to others. Life is too short.

You're right! Screw the haters! So what if they can't handle all the blood? Authentic self!

Tell this to my workplace. lol

I surmise the real reason guys don't wear capes any more was that too many dudes without grace were knockin shit over behind them; ruined it for every body... any way, moral is, you don't always know who you affect in the path behind you, but always keep striving to improve, or something...

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It's hard. Even as I type my heart is pounding with anxiety