I don’t drink anymore at all just because honestly it makes me feel like shit and puts my anxiety through the roof. Every time I have a drink in my hand I just would think about how anxious I feel.

Not very helpful for you I don’t think, but I can tell you that not drinking gets easier every time you decide to have a water or a soda instead of that drink. I feel way more in control of my everyday life since quitting drinking and I only drank on weekends.