Lots of amazing comments and advice. Just wanted to say that I was really struck by your comment about not feeling much interest in chasing things anymore. I 100 percent feel this and only recently have realized that that feeling, not wanting to chase things, is actually pretty awesome and goes counter to what society tells us to do. Society tells us to chase and chase and chase all the things you mentioned: religion or our work or our getting more stuff, whatever it is. So it's really a profound thing instead of saying, okay what's next or what more can I be doing, to just say, I'm just going to be. For me, that's meant dabbling in hobbies I never would have imagined doing. (I tried rollerblading again, for instance, which I hadn't done in like 20 years. Pointless? Kind of. Really fun? Definitely.) It's meant reading more. Trying creative writing, even though I'm probably not that great at it but it's fun. But it did mean sitting in the uncomfortable space where you are for a while thinking that something was wrong or that I just needed to find the next thing or the next goal. I'm slowly getting better at recognizing when I'm feeling that desire to find something to chase, or feeling unmotivated in general, and shifting to asking what might bring me joy. And if I try something and it doesn't bring me joy, cool! Now I know. I'll just try something else.

Sending love!