OP, I’m 24M and in much of the same rut as you. I’m searching for something that will give me and understanding of life and how I’m meant to live it. The honest answer I recently came to understand is that we can be anything or nothing at all, and that’s overwhelming as fuck. Our greatest power and our most devastating reality is our capability to carve our own path into history, and that can be daunting for me a lot of the time. I picked up a habit of reading Epictetus, Aurelius and Seneca, and Stoicism has at least helped me process my feelings and applying some sense of life into my daily habits. It’s a huge world and honestly I question whether or not life would be much simpler if I was a rural farmer in the past having his life in front of him with tunnel vision and nothing else. But this is where we’re at and in the world we live in, and we have to find some way to cope with that.