I'm 27 now and I always worry about my future. The first time I felt excited for the future was when me and my boyfriend decided to talk about our future and what we want to do. Knowing what I could achieve and how I can mold my future made me feel less anxious. What I want in life is to make the people I love feel cared for and to make their life a little more joyful. My mom and my boyfriend are the only people I want to have a wonderful life with, and also the kids that I'm eventually gonna have. I have some mental health problems and I started to realize everytime I do something selfish or hurtful I apologize as soon as I realize I was wrong. There's nothing more that I want then to have an amazing future with my bf and be able to take care of my mom while she ages. Thinking about death is terrifying, or losing my bf in some way, even losing my cats. Knowing that things can change instantly make me more aware of the time I might have with the people or things I love