No_Vacation3909 t1_j8gz2to wrote on February 14, 2023 at 5:48 AM

Damn thank you for writing this. You just described me better than I could describe myself to anyone. I’m successful but damn am I exhausted dealing with everything fight or flight mode my entire life.

I describe the way I operate as being able to take care of everything I need to take I care of inside a burning building, executing with adrenaline, and knowing exactly when the building will be coming down to know exactly when I need to get out. Somehow I make it out every time but damn it’s exhausting.

ElegantCherries OP t1_j8hde6o wrote on February 14, 2023 at 8:59 AM

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Exhaustion is a great way of describing it - I feel that too. I feel a great need to just rest, to just be. I think I am resentful about having to do anything at all at the moment.

The burning building is a great analogy! For me it's always been scrambling up a cliff face, and I can't stop else I'll fall back down into what I came from.