I’m not convinced that you need to get motivated here because motivation is fleeting and throughout the past few years you’ve gotten traction but have bailed. I wonder if the problem isn’t getting motivated but staying motivated, or just being OK not being motivated but doing what you need to do anyway. Understanding for example that you might need to work somewhere and find things you enjoy at work or skills you’re building while acknowledging it’s not perfect, and using spare time to pursue passions like DJing or EDM production.