I like to think about gratitude as an attitude or mindset that you have about life. That's different than the emotions you may feel or the stress that is causing you to feel anxious. I often say that you can be 2 things at once and you can certainly feel grateful that you have a roof over your head and many blessings and still hate the anxiety and sadness that you feel in your body and emotions. So #1, stop making yourself feel wrong b/c you have a lot in life but you still struggle emotionally, #2 get serious about healing your nervous system and your anxiety and I'd highly recommend you listen to this episode of the podcast -
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-mel-robbins-podcast/id1646101002?i=1000582487785