First - thank you for your service and congratulations on creating financial security for yourself.

Now, for your question:

Stop playing fucking video games. You're meant to do more with your life. And if you love them so much - figure out how to create a business around it.

And while you're at it - get outside, spend more time taking walks, hiking, and less time online. There is no way in hell you are going to figure out what your intuition is trying to say to you if there is so much noise around you. I can tell that you have a bigger calling. As I read this paragraph it's very clear that it's haunting you. So stop squandering your time. It's killing your dreams. Get fucking serious about figuring it out.

I did an episode on this - and I hope that it will provide a spark and ignite some clarity for you

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-mel-robbins-podcast/id1646101002?i=1000585717691