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nomorbutthole2022 t1_iy12qdt wrote

Im 53 years old and have experienced the worst year of my existence.. ive gone from near death this spring to wishing i could die now...i lost my elder dog of 17 2 months ago and last week i had to put down my 2 year old pup.. epilepsy killed him. i cannot get through a day without super anxiety, crying and just hiding to avoid everybody... because i almost died i now have an eliostomy bag ive had to learn to deal with.. in a week i go in for another major surgery where they are going to take more parts... i lost my business i lost my license for business i cant work and not far from being homeless... eating and a shower dont do anything for me... how can i get past this?.. antidepressants dont work... neither does God,pot, alcohol, and just about anything else taken to numb oneself... seems im at the end of my rope

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InternationalHatDay t1_iy1n9f9 wrote

that sounds horrible. you really need to get some support and id start with a support group for whatever your medical situation is because theyll get it. then you can apply for disability maybe, idk. theres clearly a lot to deal with here but you dont have to deal with it alone. i really think support from people who get it would help, please consider it

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NotUnique_______ t1_iy1tj7a wrote

Therapy. If you can, find a therapist in your network who specializes in maybe medical trauma/stuff? I got a therapist who helps me deal with the emotional side of my sciatica, among other things. Are you correctly diagnosed? For YEARS every doc said i had depression. Turns out, surprise it's bipolar!

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i_am_mai_1981 t1_iy1jnyu wrote

I am sorry to hear you have been going through so much. I can't offer much but a listening ear, and your feelings are valid. This year has been rough for me too. I haven't gone through near what you have, but I have struggled immensely with heat intolerance and I feel like I'm literally melting from the inside with no explanation and I feel so alone with no one who understands 💔

If it means anything, I am glad you are still here.

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Propsygun t1_iy4iun8 wrote

I'm sorry for your loss, all of it, and every single thing. As someone who lost a lot, am essentially homeless, you can't deal with it all at once, it's to overwhelming, try to deal with it one thing at a time, and that's what it takes, time. Time to grief, time to change perspective, time to accept.

It sounds like you are used to being independent, it's not a loss of that, to ask for help, especially where you don't have time, like the possibility of becoming homeless in the near future. It's a strength, to have people that can help.

The things you write that doesn't help, it's complicated, i can go in details if you like, so you know why, and how to make them work.

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