ravioli_bruh t1_iy26vji wrote on November 28, 2022 at 4:22 AM

I thought I was/have been depressed until I saw this post lol. Sad is not equal to depression clearly. Still eating healthily, exercising, working, and overall taking care of myself.

nip_pickles OP t1_iy29sk2 wrote on November 28, 2022 at 4:49 AM

Before my mixed states hit, depression used to be either long periods of uninterrupted sleep, broken by a piss and a cigarette, then another nap for 20 hours, and on repeat until im faint from blood sugar crash. That or, I have horrific insomnia, but zero energy whatsoever, can't even hold and use my phone.

Now I have what's called mixed episodes or mixed states. It's where I'm manic and depressed. Not anxious, manic. Like thoughts racing like I may as well be on drugs, all around suicide, why I should, how I should, bordering or fully delusional, and with the mania involved, during these depressive episodes, I now have the energy to put myself in dangerous situations and often find myself hospitalized.

Depression is definitely more than just being sad. But your feelings are valid too. I hope you get to feeling better soon, and if the feelings of sad last for a really long time, or start hindering you from taking care of life, then you probably are depressed.

Be well.

RusDaMus t1_iy2d7cu wrote on November 28, 2022 at 5:23 AM

You've still got room to empathise with others even while suffering yourself. You took the time to post this info as a way of helping others despite you needing help yourself. That makes you an exceptional person in my mind and it's what I aspire to be. The world would be better with more people like you in it. Perhaps try to remember that next time you're feeling particularly bad about yourself. It has me thinking that the real LPT here is helping others as a great way to get outside of your own head, with all its exhausting, sabotaging, negative self talk. Thank you.