Its better to have the ability to process emotion then bottle it & one day snap & crash out or do something completely irrational.

Try & direct your emotions into pen & paper give journaling a shot. Allows you to free your mind & then look back & reflect on times when you thought this was the end all be all, how could my life get any worse or vice versa the best day ever, something that made you really happy. It’s nostalgic being able to reflect on that. I enjoy journalling right before bed helps put my mind at ease & fall asleep quickly