Please do not change yourself! You are lucky because there are so many who cannot show emotions so they are in pain and can't let people know. I am the same way! I dont care what people say about you their opinions do not matter!!! If you will surround yourself with positive people, they will not treat you like this. I am trying to distance myself from "friends" who treat me bad. It is the hardest thing I have ever done! But it's working. I'm feeling better, slowly but surely. I have one friend whom I have known for 32 years. Yep. 32 years! But I am slowly letting her know I will not put up with her behavior toward me. Get rid of people who don't make you feel good about yourself