I work in addiction treatment, and I have struggled with mental health and being toxic/making poor choices.

When I hear my clients stories... I have never once judged. I hear the things that you said quite frequently. I honestly love my clients - I have not thought twice about anything. And I have heard some pretty damn "awful" things. I don't care.

All that matters is who you are going forward. You're not alone, not alone in the slightest. You've learned.

Not everyone will be kind. But I think that's a sign of immaturity and not about you.

My personal opinion is everyone deserves love. I don't care what you've done - you could say the most objectively vile thing, but how's it going to help you if I judge you or hate you? How's it going to help you if you judge or hate you?

I've personally found that judging yourself tends to keep you locked in destructive behaviors.

You are worthy of love and respect and a good life.