Last year I was starting to think I had "gotten over" my depression and anxiety. I was working close to 70 hours a week (while taking a class for my masters degree), almost never had an entire day off, and I loved it. I loved my job and felt like not only was I accomplishing things at work that gave me a sense of purpose, but I was achieving my personal career goals as well. Then I got fired based on one bad managers fake story he made up to screw me over. And I suddenly realized I still had depression and anxiety. However staying busy and tired, as well as feeling good about myself and my future and finances, had been helping keep the symptoms at bay.

I looked for a new job for two months while I appealed my termination, and I hadn't felt so low in years. Now I got a new job but am back at the bottom of the totem pole, hoping I can get noticed and work my way back up like before. My new job is MUCH less fulfilling, MUCH more mentally boring and MUCH more physically exhausting. But even worse, I'm not getting overtime and I dread being at home for 4 days a week (I work 3x12hour shifts). At least it made me realize I should probably start working on my mental health again and maybe seeing a therapist and trying to train my brain to cope with things better. Made me realize that, of course I can handle life well when it's going great, it's being able to handle it when things go to shit that is a real test of how put-together I am mentally.