The pain in my chest was unbearable. Just moments earlier a spear was plunged deep into my chest. Well it was actually a twisted pole from a road side guard. A possibly during driver jumped the median and crashed into my car. It happened so fast I couldn't turn the wheel fast enough.

Now I can see the glass shattered around me. I lay in my seat reclined with my hands to the sides. My head just staring at the twisted metal sticking out of my chest and through the empty windshield. Blood splattered across the dash and the messy splashes of rain.

I choked a swallow of saliva and breathed Shakey and scared. This is it... I know there is no surviving this. I don't need to look at the entry. It's best I don't. If I do then I'll panic and waste the small amount of time I have left. It's alright... Just stay calm. Cherish it...

I wish I told her how much I loved her before I left. We had gotten into a fight just before leaving. She was upset about her boss being a prick and I blew her off by saying my boss was worse. I should have just let her vent without me competing with it. She has been stressed lately and just needed support from me. I knew that. But I had to be an asshole and do that stupid thing.

I wish I saw my daughter's soccer game last night.. I was supposed to be there but work called me in. I told her after dinner that I'd be at the next one. I shouldn't have made a promise I can't keep. I'm sorry Lizzy... I can't help but think of her life. The day she was born was the most magical I've ever felt. Her face was so tiny and scrunched up screaming.

My wife held her close as they cut the cord. Tears flooding her face. This was the most loving moment I felt in my life. Soon there were millions of diapers and cute laughs that are so contagious you don't even know what's funny anymore you're just laughing with her. The days she would run up to me saying "daddy daddy look what me and mommy made for you!" And I'd see a popsicle cupholder and pencil holder all covered in glitter and stickers for my desk at work.

I actually put that on my work desk. It sits right next to my picture frame of them and my calendar. I even placed a cloth on the cupholder to protect it from my coffee cup.

And the smile my wife gave me when we first met. I had to be the arrogant asshole who insulted her car while changing its oil. I didn't know she was standing behind me and she really gave me her two cents worth of my ass. She knew her stuff and she really knew how to dig a hole into my soul. I still feel guilty for calling her car junk. She told me to apologize with a cup of coffee.

She gave the same smile on our wedding day. She stood in front of me holding my hands. She was dressed in white with rose gold accents because she was a bit of a rebel with traditional wedding dresses. The moment I kissed her I knew I was staring the best journey of my life.

Why didn't I appreciate it more...? Stay home more and work less... I gave my job most of my time. And what for...? As I sit here dying that job means nothing. They can replace me tomorrow... But my wife and daughter cannot. Sure they can move on but they can't feel the same again. I should have just been there more.

I'm sorry Renee... I'm sorry Lizzy... I love you both...

....game over....

....I opened my eyes before I was even able to process thoughts. The room was bright and white. Did I survive?

"Hello Jeffrey. You seem to have come out of the program nicely."

"What...?" I looked around dizzy. "Where is my family?"

"Uh oh... You don't remember. This happens sometimes." The doctor scientist looking guy sat down in a little chair Infront of me. "Your name is Jeffrey Daniels not Jeffrey Plain. You have been in a fantasy world during the period of your medically induced coma while you healed up from a car crash. The crash you experienced in the game is the same one in real life."

It all came flooding back. I was in a crash... But everything else... My family.. I'm a single man living in a crap apartment with no one. My heart ached. I loved them... Still do.. but they... All those memories... They were not real..

"Please let me go back in.... I want to stay in the coma.. I want to go back.."

"If we place you back in your body won't be able to function properly anymore and you'll eventually slip away. You'll die."

"So be it... I rather die with them than live alone here.."

"They are not real Jeffrey"

Every time I close my eyes I see their faces. I feel their warmth when I hug them. I can feel their souls close to mind. Something lodges in my throat draining it from moisture and forces me to cough. It won't go away and my eyes begin to flood with salty stinging tears.

"I... Don't... Give... A... Damn..." I express slowly with an authoritative tone. "I have a soccer game to see. Lizzy is counting on me to keep my promise and I need to apologize to Renee for being an asshole."

"Alright then..."

I lay back down as the doctor injects me with a syringe of something. I start to feel drowsy.

*It's alright guys... I'm coming home now... I love you both..."