Don’t be hard on yourself OP. You don’t need to justify anything; as others in the comments have said, enjoy a few pages every day. I work long shifts and by the time I get home I’m totally spent and don’t have enough attention span left to read as much as I’d like, but I motivate myself by curling up with my record player on, my three cats cuddling me, and a big mug of tea. I only ever get a few pages in before I fall asleep, but progress is progress. Don’t let the booktubers/tiktokkers’ habits make you feel like you should be devouring a book in two days, remember that they have a steady schedule of content to make to keep interactivity and clicks from their fans high, so you just do you.