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xannmax t1_iypx8q4 wrote

I feel like this is commentary on the way we talk about ourselves.

We're the figure at the bottom, scolded and berated and chastised in a variety of distressing ways. And each one of these five figures embodies a form of inner turmoil we inflict on ourselves. The pain of our mistakes, disappointment in our failures, scrutiny of our wasted time and money, agony over our injuries and ailments, and the constant burning nagging reminder of 'you're going to die one day.'

Fantastic piece!

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downrightlazy OP t1_iyq2n8u wrote

You're pretty much spot on there u/xannmax, I've had a constant stream of negative dialogue running in my head for some time now and it's been an exhausting manner of existence. I'm glad that you understood but also sorry that you can relate, which is a weird sentence. Much love and keep fighting the good fight mate.

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brabdnon t1_iyr8o32 wrote

It’s a beautiful piece of work. The perspective of tbe judged and the size of the judges is really well done. If you’re not familiar, you might look up the Judges of Tartarus as they often depicted in a similar way.

But to your point about negative self talk: I’m sorry you’ve been suffering. It’s tough to find kind internal voices; it’s something I’ve been working on a lot, and I can say, with some gradual and steady pressure to reprogram similar entities, they are finally relenting.

I hope you can find a similar peace. Keep up the art, you have some real talent.

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downrightlazy OP t1_iyrvnw0 wrote

Thank you for the kind words. I'm just getting the hang of perspective and I'm trying to experiment with it as much as possible. I'm glad you've found some peace, perhaps I'd get there one day. Cheers mate.

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Darth_Vadaa t1_iyrhrs3 wrote

I relate a lot to this picture for these same reasons. I'm the kind of person who really beats myself up over my mistakes when I probably shouldn't and it just makes my life more difficult. Like right now I'm dealing with some insurance bullshit with my car and I made a lot of mistakes in reporting it (the other person hit me in the parking lot) and yet I'm the one giving myself shit when they couldn't care less and would rather screw me over.

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downrightlazy OP t1_iyrwkys wrote

This probably isn't going to help, but you live and you learn right ? Next time you get hit by a car, you'll probably make less mistakes. Tbf, i'd be blaming myself the same way as you if it happened to me and that constant cycle of negative thoughts and baratement would continue despite someone telling me it isn't my fault, but fuck it, it's not your fault mate, take a deep breath and just try to clear your mind for one minute atleast. You deserve that. You'll figure this out. Cheers.

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Darth_Vadaa t1_iyrxw77 wrote

It does help a little, thank you. I'm just taking it one day at a time trying to figure this mess out. I'll still be stuck in my negative cycle, but the solidarity helps. It was absolutely her fault and I'll find a way to fix it, whether it be through her insurance or mine.

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