I mean your attitude toward this is just completely wrong.

In your post you say “I did this thing because some random person I’ve never met and never will made me do it because they did this thing that upset me and that’s why I did it.”

No. Wrong. All of that, wrong.

YOU did that. YOU CHOSE to do that, completely of your own volition.

Nobody can MAKE you behave any certain way, your just trying to absolve yourself of any responsibility for your actions. My dad used to do this shit to us when we were kids. Say awful nasty things and then later offer a veiled apology, but it was more like “I’m sorry I said that, but you guys made me say it by acting like whatever.”

No, man. No. YOU did the thing.

The person hundreds of miles away on the other side of a computer monitor has nothing to do with it. A complete non factor in your equation.

YOU have issues controlling your emotions in the face of negative circumstances, or what YOU perceive as negative circumstances. YOU lash out in inappropriate and destructive ways as a response. YOU need to work on that. Either on your own or with a professional, because I’m willing to put money on the fact that this doesn’t just happen when you’re playing video games, does it?

YOU have some work to do.