Hey , just wanted to say that maybe you’re not looking at the “not telling my therapist about my suicidal thoughts “ the right way. Or maybe you are ? Sometimes people have “intrusive suicidal thoughts “. That’s normal and worth mentioning to a therapist. They know this. I know from my own personal experience with my bipolar 2 condition that I’ll have those thoughts. It’s not the same as being actually suicidal.

Anyways , just wanted to put that out there so you can get the most out of your therapy sessions. Just say “you know , I’m not suicidal, but I do have intrusive thoughts about suicide or I’m just not wanting to be here “. They know that language isn’t the same as somebody being actually suicidal and can help unearth what’s the root cause of that or help your process those thoughts. I hope that makes sense.

Good luck on your journey to better mental health. You’re doing great!!!!