Submitted by Writerwithoutsoul t3_10wwfhj in nosleep
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7qeuxo wrote
Have you tried to look for ways to bind yourself? Check with voodoo priests and priestesses. You clearly are not evil, you are not defined by your affliction. Try keeping an eye on it. Maybe experiment? It feels like a treat time to start with the scientific method and figure out what helps and what irks you. It's not a permanent solution but it should help you feel more in control.
I think therapy would also help even just so you know how to handle your own emotions better.
ARXEUS_ t1_j7r3xsr wrote
Why bother with therapy when you can join the military with your awesome powers and eat as much as you want??
Pretty sure the secret service will have a ton of uses for a shape shifting monster, they will even manage her schedule and give her plenty of weapons to protect herself from similar monsters
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7r45to wrote
Lady sounds fragile and actually you spend long, LONG time under really strict observation.
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7r7ha2 wrote
True that, and my Dad's personality didn't help ONE BIT with my emotional problems, I doubt that more military dudes would make me more chill. Also, I am like on the verge of getting kicked out of school because of my authority problem, so how long do you think I would stay in the fucking army?
ARXEUS_ t1_j7r6q5v wrote
So what, imagine the possibilities
Eat a drug kingpin's right hand man and gather dirt on him
Eat a rival nation's politician and gather their secrets
Strict observation is for normal humans, they will have to tweak their rules accordingly and make changes
The polish once had a bear as a soldier and they even promoted him for exemplary service
Surely they did not make him mop the floor and do pushups??
Here's good boi Private Wojtek if you wanna read about him https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wojtek_(bear)
He used to carry heavy loads, and stuff that mostly needed 4 humans to lift
He is the emblem of the 22nd artillery supply company
If a bear can do all this, imagine what the lady can do
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7r7ea4 wrote
You mean for her to admit who she is and let herself be used as a weapon? That sounds like a bad idea, especially when she said that it's getting harder to control herself the more she shifts. It feels like she needs to figure out the mystical aspect of it. And I don't see how the army would be that.
ARXEUS_ t1_j7r8ed5 wrote
Army has therapists too
Army deals with more PTSD and depression than we commoners can imagine
And yet, they find a way
Also, science is king, like it or not, even the devil has to follow science
They will figure it out
And wdym "let herself be used as a weapon" ??
You think undercover agents are weapons and not people??
What kinda thinking is that??
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7r6rh4 wrote
Yeah we thought about joining the military very, very briefly, but fortunately, we are not American, and I'm honestly not sure whether or not my country has an organization similar to the secret-service, we barely send working tanks to Ukraine lol. But even if I were American, I wouldn't trust those dudes, I heard that they lock people like me up in Area 51. :(
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7r5xiy wrote
Oh, the voodoo thing is a good idea, gotta look into that! We life in a really small town though and cannot have drivers licenses yet, so idk how far we'll get. Maybe I can find someone online.
The "scientific method" is something Jaime wants to try as well (he took AP Biology and has since started to say "from a logical point of view"super-often, which is very annoying). So yeah, he cannot wait to put some needles into me, but I gotta see what he wants to do exactly before I agree to this. Will keep you updated.
Also, many people have suggested therapy, but neither me nor my brother ever went because a) Mom was a therapist, and you see how that turned out and b) I cannot talk about my emotional issues without anyone asking for the so-called "reasons" and I get into ranting-mode fast and I am scared that I will let something slip that gets me tried for murder. Also, laying down on a couch and crying sounds boring.
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7rabjq wrote
I see, so direct therapy doesn't seem like an option but maybe best practices? General models to control your emotional state, ways to handle the situations. It reminded me a bit of a panic attack the way you destined it. Maybe it would be a helpful methodology?
You mentioned that it started because a person put a curse, can you engage in a bunch of history research and find who, what, when, where? You are... a student, no? So you can make it a school project. Absolutely perfect excuse to poke your nose, read more, to the library, pester whoever you want.
About the overall weirdo issues you are describing about your looks and health. Hide in plain sight. Have you ever considered that you can become an annoying millennial (gen z? Whatever it is.). Hide in plain sight. Adopt a dramatic fashion sense. Makeup could be your friend. You can also develop an interest in stage makeup. See, "it's not that I look weird, I am experimenting this or that idea, that is why this week I am a bit on the weird looking side.".
Basically, the important thing is... you are not alone. You also are most likely not the only people on the planet having this. Poke around a bit more. Sharing the story was a great first step. Try witches and other such areas. Those who knows... will know. Those who don't will get a kick out of your story. You are not in a hurry at the moment.
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7rew25 wrote
I will look into the therapy models, never really thought of that so far, but it seems very much genius. The school project as well, "family history" would make a good hang-up for it, honestly.
Lmao "becoming an annoying gen-z", that's genius. I already am annoying, so this would underline my personality, actually. The stage make-up could be super-cool as well, I always wanted to develop my very limited makeup skills, and imagine how overdramatic I could be with the urge to look for trouble AND super cool, long eyelashes. I will DEFINITELY do this, and also look what other funny witches I will find locally.
The thing is, we are not in a hurry about the shifting-research, but we do need to get that Dave thing sorted out fast. I will not go to school with that fucker there. He knows too much.
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7tkaqt wrote
About Dave, I would lean into it a lot. As in, makeup and all the shit. Be as annoying as possible about witchiness or whatever. When he mentions something religious, go on a rant (within reason) about the patriarchal bs of it. Channel your theater kid. And over respond to all bs he does. Even if it has NO effect on you. So he doesn't know what affects you. In the meantime, alert whatever teacher or whoever is responsible about this in the school that he is explicitly harassing you in reference to religious things and make it clear that he is acting as if he thinks you are something supernatural. Make HIM come off as the religious weirdos who is harassing a regular kid, since the fact that you are supernatural is inconsequential. He chose to harass you because you suffered trauma and for him you are an easy picking, because he is a bully. Don't eat him. That would cause issues. But absolutely make a fuss about it. And absolutely keep a list of everything be has done or said to you. The supernatural doesn't exist for your school or for most adults. He will be the one coming off as the weirdo asshole for pulling that shit. The more he does it and you have proof for it, the worse for him and better for you.
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7tmyy4 wrote
That is a great idea! Change the narrative lol. I would say I am good enough of an actress to actually do this, and I would love to pretend to be the normal one for once.
But the thing about Dave is, he does not really pull stuff when teachers are around. If we tell a teacher, it is his word against ours, and teachers sort of hate me. They hate Jaime... less, but if he goes to them, they will propably assume that he is just lying to excuse me almost punching Dave yesterday.
Also, there is something more to this kid. We really told NO ONE about the exorcism shit. Not a soul. Our case was handled as domestic abuse/"parents getting rid of children to start over" - thing. So, David must be involved in all of this somehow. The only people who knew what happened in that basement were Mom, Jaime, me and Dad. This is why we are really fucking terrified rn.
ancientevilvorsoason t1_j7tnqva wrote
You have a phone, simply record your interactions. Put it in your pocket and when you are out of ear shot, let it record. Sooner than later you will have the proof. It's very hard to argue with that and if the teachers try to ignore it, send it to a newspaper by telling them all about it and how the school does nothing. Or you can even go the route of social media. TikTok would LOVE this. You can always spin it as you making social media to cope with whatever happened but that you are getting bullied by that person. If and should you need support, you will have that. That does include risk exposure however, so keep it as a last ditch resolve.
Writerwithoutsoul OP t1_j7tszjd wrote
omg that's brilliant we really should have thought of that. Seems like my brain is still kind of mushy... anyway, will definitely keep my phone on me when I see that dick the next time :)
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