You're doing well Ashley. You do need to work on blaming yourself WAY less for things that are out of your control, but you're also one of the rare kind of people who actually give a shit and want to be helpful and that's worth a LOT. Plus, you've already confronted some disgustingly awful things and come out on top, which is impressive.

Just thought you might need a reminder of that. You're doing well, and you are exceptional. Now please be safe. Relatively, anyway.