Look, I'm not going to make any suggestions about how to move forward in your relationship with your mom; that's entirely up to you, and I get it. I mean, neither of my parents are vampires, but they've still some shitty stuff that has affected me (and my siblings) negatively, despite loving us and wanting what's best for us. Only you can decide if you still want her in your life; only you know how everything affected you.

All that being said, have you ever looked into any of the men your mom killed? I know I would be curious, and maybe knowing whether or not her victims were actually terrible people would change something, even just a little. Isn't it better to have all the facts?