Honestly, you're a pretty bad child imo. Your mother never chose this. She never had the choice you have, it was forced upon her, yet you call her monster when she has done nothing but honor your dad's memory. And you say your dad "didn't want you to become one" when he wanted you to have a choice. That implies he would have been fine with you choosing to be like your mother. You complain about your town judging and whatever, but you're the one being the most judgemental and hypocritical. Sorry for being blunt but someone had to say it.