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[deleted] t1_iswi3pb wrote

girlll... it astounds me that people can be so disgustingly vain and narcissistic. with your whole heart and zero skin you wrote, "people who wanted to matter, but didn't" .. why r u literally dorian gray but uninteresting and (presumably) straight

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Ellie_The_Mermaid129 OP t1_iswqlv6 wrote

Because that was my mindset. It was. As horrible as it is to admit. You can’t get the whole story of me without seeing the person I was. It’s how I thought. Other people didn’t matter to me.

Writing this was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. My internal transformation, so to speak, was because of losing my skin and seeing how ugly I was on the inside. But writing down the person I used to be, and the selfish, narcissistic, and awful traits that came with it, that was harder in a way.

It was just as painful honestly.

Now, of course, realizing the mistakes I’ve made and being able to change for the better, it’s all I can do.

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