How are you "best friends" with two people for almost ten or more years (now I'm guessing that since you said y'all met in your 20's and now two of you have families) and have only had a "few" deep conversations? Sounds to me more like you were acquaintances and/or you have shit taste in friends since one fucking drugged you because he wasn't man enough to confront his shitty wife (and set this whole shitshow on a roll!) and the other one is a serial killer!!! Maybe with the next friends you find try getting to actually know the real them instead of just the surface and shallow stuff. Well, that's assuming you manage to survive🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️