Thank you so much for your reply. I greatly appreciate it. I know sometimes my brain just blank screens whenever it's too tired to process things. I try to help how I can because I know the struggle. Better than I would like to. Am I happy that I ever struggled with depression and anxiety? No. Who wants to go through that struggle? But am I thankful for it in its own way? Yes. I am. Because then I can help those who are struggling just the same and don't know which way is up. Then, at least, the struggle wasn't in vain, and I'm making use of my struggles to help others with theirs. I know I don't know you, but for what it's worth, you're a good person. Kind. Caring. Loving and looking to still help others even when you're having a hard time yourself. It takes a lot of strength to get through this, and you're doing a great job. I have faith that you can pull through it all and get things sorted out. That video I linked? That was a big turning point in flipping everything I believed on its head (for the better) and gave me the ability to allow myself to let my guard down. Slowly. Carefully. But it had a big impact and gave me what I needed to be real.

Edit: don't be afraid to just let your body relax. If you can, sit in a sauna, hot tub, bath or even just sit in the shower. Listen to the sound of the water. The warmth on your skin. The feel of the water. Soak it in and let it give you a mental break if you can. Don't think about anything else but what your senses are taking in. Close your eyes. Focus on what your hands feel. I understand on bad days that it may be harder or even almost impossible to do. It's like meditation you could say. When it's nice out, go outside and just sit. Feel the warmth on your body. The breeze. The sounds. You could even (although I don't know how much it could help) but play white noise or relaxing music that has no words. Whether it's running water, the ocean, a thunderstorm. It's helped me to shut my brain down and give me a break by only focusing solely on what my senses picked up. If smell is a big thing for you, light a candle like on your nightstand or something. Lay in bed and just take in the beautiful, sweet, refreshing smell of the candle burning beside you. Life is so overwhelming its no wonder people struggle.

Edit 2: but for me it helps to close my eyes. What our eyes take in is probably the most prioritized sense that we have that overwhelms our other senses. Most of what we take in is what we see. Other senses just help that but we never focus on them. Never really focus on our other senses. It makes a big difference. Just be safe whatever you do that helps your brain to rest.