So, this is probably going to catch some hate; but I am not picking up on love, as much as I am picking up you both still having a physical attraction to each other. Maybe I am wrong, but you've been pretty honest with us about your feelings this whole time. You've never been unclear in your retelling of your history of your relationship with Jacek that you did not feel the same about him as you. And it doesn't sound to me like he is in love with you. I do not believe with the hole in his chest he has the compacity to love like he used to, much like you do not have thr compacity to love like others do, without your soul. Anyway, I am not saying it couldn't happen; however, I am not seeing right now. And I be wary of letting old feelings cloud your judgment. You have much bigger issues to deal with. You have sacrificed your life, youth, love and happiness, and soul for your land. And in a way, your mother died for the land. Your parents didn't have to stay there. They could've sold it, move to some subdivision, and your mother probably wouldn't have died in such a horrible manner; let alone foreseen her own death. You mentioned in this entry, that your parents marriage was falling apart by the time of her death, living on your land cost them their marriage too. Yes, Jacek is back. Yeah, you probably still wouldn't mind one more throw down, ok; but that doesn't matter right now. Jacek and all his bullshit is not the point. You and your land is, too much has been lost and sacrificed for it. One way or another,

Make. Tom. Pay.