PsychologyToday.com has a great list of therapists that you can filter by your insurance type. Check there to see if you can find someone to see you ASAP!

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, OP. You should be proud of yourself for seeking help and even writing this post - the fight isn’t over. You can do it. I believe in you. Sending you love, hugs, and healing thoughts. ❤️