Hi OP. I've had terrible anxiety attacks that made me wish I would just die already and end my suffering. And I've been to doctors out the wazoo for it. So, I hate to see you suffering like this. What I tell you next depends on your answer: what order are the symptoms happening in? Are you feeling stressed, then you get physical symptoms? Or are you getting physical symptoms like the racing heartbeat out of seemingly nowhere then you feel terrible mentally? For me it was always physical then mental but doctors kept trying to treat mental symptoms in the hopes it would manage the physical symptoms. They wasted tons of time and kept me miserable way longer than i should have been. Propranolol helped me tremendously and it should be a relatively easy medication to get.