You can always contact your primary care doctor. They can prescribe something to help with anxiety. Plus you get to talk to somebody about what's going on in your life. I was having panic attacks earlier this year and I ended up going to the ER because I didn't know what was wrong with me. They said I was fine and I should just go see my primary care. She ended up prescribing me zoloft and I've been MUCH better. Hope you find some relief soon, anxiety and s ideation is not fun.