Don’t got to the ER, they will throw you in the psych ward for a 3-7 day evaluation, which it times can’t be bad if necessary, but if you’re able to resist doing that then don’t. And if you show up saying you’re having panic attacks and maybe just want to talk to someone or get some meds, that won’t work in the ER either since same story of just bringing you to the psych ward - ER isn’t for mental health emergencies unfortunately whereas the psych wards, though equipped sometimes poorly (looking at your Woodhaul!) are for this sort of thing.

If you have insurance (ugh), I’d like to refer you to Rotchschild Counseling - I was in a very similar boat a couple years ago and didn’t know where to go at first, did end up at Woodhaul ER and THEN Woodhaul psych unit, which fortunately made it out in a day but I wouldn’t wanna spend an expended few days there.

Look up a counseling service for a therapist/psychiatrist (preferably therapist if you’re not looking to just get meds.) The one I referred to above got me in right away talking to someone within a day or two. Other therapy clinics might have faster times.

Also NYC does have a mental health hotline where they can give you references and resources. I believe I called them before and they gave me some decent info, don’t quite remember what: https://www.nyc.gov/site/doh/health/health-topics/nyc-well.page

And lastly, know you’re not alone. We can keep the Reddit convos going, feel free to DM me if you have other questions or whatever! Good luck ✨🙏