Good evening. I'm hoping that you've already received the information and support that you need to help guide you through to the other side of your difficulties. If not, please consider calling the national mental health emergency hotline at 988. You are sure to get services and supports by doing so. And, do not hesitate for fear of hospitalization. It does not sound like you require hospitalization, rather psychotherapeutic and possibly outpatient psychiatric services until your mood has returned to baseline. Also, please know that you are not alone. I work in the field of mental health. I know first-hand how many people are struggling more than usual right now. Please update your post when you can, to let us know that you're ok, and that you've found the services that you needed. Be well.