I try not to proselytize, I think it's rude. I went through a similar thing with my own dad, FTD. I found solace in my religion during that time not because I thought of seeing my dad as he was in the next life, but because it was such a struggle to understand how something so horrible can happen to a person, to a family. For me religion was a way to tell myself that things happen in life that we don't understand but there is still a meaning to it.

I hope you can find that inner peace for yourself in your own way. Anytime you feel like you are going through this and you just want to vent, you can send me a private message, anytime. No talk about religion, just someone to talk to who knows what it's like.