I wish I can tell you specifically what to do, but I believe the answer lies in the needing of a new nature.This isn't a change of mind, persay, or something that can be taught. He needs to see something in you before he desires it for himself.

I didn't reference that verse just as an intellectual thing, but because I had to have my "darkest" moment in my life as well before reaching out. I also tried many vain things beforehand as well before I reached out.

And I met Him. My life has never been the same before. There is a reality and once you have that experiance for yourself....you too won't be the same.

Get right with Jesus first....then let things happen the way it needs to happen.

Whatever you do don't make a quick decision from here on out.