You don’t. You respect his wishes. You are going to be months of therapy to fix this, the relationship is already tainted, you can’t ask him to be single for a year for a crazy chick he dated for a month. Learning what’s important in life will help you a lot, but it sounds like you have a past to unpack with a professional. Hypnosis and exercise are great for anxiety, but anyone can be someone else for a month. There are a million stories on here of people getting married or moving in too quickly and they end up in an abusive relationship. If you are crying at dinner over not getting a flower, how will you cope when real stuff happens? Because real stuff will happen. People will die, have accidents, get sick, lose children, lose their partner, face financial ruin. What do you bring to the table? You sound as though you need babied. That’s not a partner, that’s a responsibility with sex. Decent, stable people can’t be arsed with drama llamas. Life’s too short.