This is so helpful I appreciate you being non judgmental too. I know a lot about attachment theory because I am a psych major and I know I could definitely benefit from therapy as well. I think the toughest thing relationship wise is that me and my boyfriend come from such different families. My family is kind of broken and we are not close and used to have a lot of resentment and fear of each other, while his family is extremely close and loving and they do family zoom calls to check in on each other and talk about anything. He definitely has more solid communication skills than I do so when something bothers him he voices it, but when something bothers me I shove it down until I either explode or express it as a "joke" aka my sarcasm.