What trust issues are their in your relationship, you have made previous posts but deleted them so whats the trust issue? One of the comments on your "i messed up" post included that you had hidden chats with men, infidelity and a tinder account, whats that about? Also why are you with someone who one you dont trust and two treats you this way? you dont deserve to be treated like this and you have known for a while you should leave him.