I understand. Try what I had previously suggested. Otherwise, maybe couples therapy where you can get those feelings out in a safe space. I’m sorry you’re in that situation. Please try to seek out a trusted friend who will let you crash with them til you can get on your feet should anything happen. I know how these men can be. Manipulative and sometimes abusive when they’re called out for their shit. I want you safe. YOU deserve to be happy! Do what you feel is best and stay safe please. I hope you get this all resolved❤️