Submitted by jaskldfjaslgj t3_yi2zsi in relationship_advice
Whenever I'm in the "mood", I think of some of our sexual encounters and it always gets me going. But after I finish I'm always hit with the same intense feeling of guilt. It feels a little "rapey" to put it bluntly. I get that we can't police thoughts, but I still feel guilty whenever I think of her in all these lewd positions for my own sexual pleasure, and I know if she were to find out about this she would be absolutely disgusted by it. I don't want to stop because nothing feels better than being with her again (even though it's in my imagination), but at the same time she didn't really consent to being thought of like that after our breakup. Im probably overthinking this but I'd really appreciate some input.
This part isn't related to the original post but I'm pretty sure she was the love of my life, we were together for 2 and half a years, broke up 2 years ago and I'm still not over her so if you guys have any advice that could help me with that as well it'd be much appreciated
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