susgodtraplord t1_iuj0zzf wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:20 PM

Your post says to me that you were bullied into being the “mediator” in every conflict and forced to compromise your feelings for the sake of someone else’s all the time. This reads like you’ve been manipulated to believe that unless you act and speak perfectly when voicing a concern, those concerns are invalid and don’t deserve to be heard. Your whole family sounds like absolute trash, from what you’ve described. If I were you, I’d seek therapy and take some time away from those who work to drag you into toxic patterns.

mganga_mzungu OP t1_iuj32iw wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:34 PM

Already in therapy, and yes this is exactly what my therapist has said to me before. But since I'm a broke uni student still need the $$ from the fam

susgodtraplord t1_iuj39vv wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:35 PM

Is it possible for you to get a job through your school? I worked in a cafeteria in undergrad for some extra spending $ and it didn’t interfere much with my schoolwork- either that or pick up a part time on the weekends. Do you have insurance?

mganga_mzungu OP t1_iuj47co wrote on October 31, 2022 at 6:41 PM

School only provides unpaid internships. And I don't really have time to work as my uni is a bit different than most and I'm usually at uni from 8am to 8pm mon-sat. I don't have insurance but I do pay for health care through the student union.

susgodtraplord t1_iujcnqr wrote on October 31, 2022 at 7:38 PM

Does your school have a mental health resources office? If you get health insurance through the school, you may be able to recieve mental health care through your uni, or even perhaps find a local therapist that would accept your insurance. I totally get the time constraints- that sounds really tough. Maybe an online WFH job could give you what you need? Something simple like data entry from home or secretarial work that would still give you time to do your schoolwork.